I am slowly going crazy... 1,2,3,4,5,6 switch...Crazy going slowly am I... 6,5,4,3,2,1 switch...
Still no word from Akron.
Still no word from Lock Haven.
Still no word from Lincoln Land.
Still no word from Owens.
I feel like I'm losing it. For some reason, yesterday afternoon I just started getting really panicked about work next year. I started imagining myself in a Wendy's cap asking people if they want to "Biggie Size" their combos.
I know I shouldn't worry so much about it... but it's time to start thinking about it you know? I graduate this year and will have two degrees, a BA and an MFA, and I may be unemployed. The thought horrifies me.
What horrifies me even more is that I'm such a lazy procrastinator, I don't have a back up plan. I missed all the PhD application deadlines... I missed the Stegner deadline... and now I've missed the Wisconsin fellowship deadline. I'm such a stupid stupid girl. I can't believe time has gone soooo fast. I kept thinking I had more time but now it's gone. So, a job is even more important now.
I could always teach adjunct... but there's not even a guarantee that I could find a position... and they pay so little, I would be better off going back to the secretary job. At least I'd make more money.
Best case scenario: I get one of the four full time positions listed above and make enough money to live and be happy.
Worst case scenario: I get no job and have no way to survive... and end up like this guy:
If you pray... pray for me. I am seriously going nuts worrying about this.
(My blog title is from Sharon, Louis and Bram's Elephant Show if you didn't catch on to that already.)